My heart is content and I'm feeling the best I've felt in months. Praise God-what an awesome feeling! I don't know the last time I've felt so at peace and truly happy.
First off all, I have been taking care of myself. Throughout the past many months, I haven't worried about me. I have worried about my husband (although he may not agree..hehe), my daughter, my students, my family, and the list just goes on. I know many moms feel this way, but I needed to do something about it. As some of you know, I was pretty depressed last summer/beginning of the school year, and I wanted this summer to be different. I've started running/walking every morning before Olivia wakes up. I even woke up at 5:30 this morning before Jeremiah left for church to go out and run (We'll see how long this lasts..ha!). I've found that working out first thing really puts me in a great mood for the day. During these runs/walks, I've been connecting with God. It feels amazing to start my day off with quiet time. In addition, I've been trying to eat healthier. It's working right now, but again, we'll see how long it lasts. I've already started craving Mountain Dew and it's been one week.:)
After making these changes, I can tell a difference in my attitude. I actually feel like I'm being a good mom and wife for once! I LOVE taking care of my family. I wake up every day excited to be with my baby girl! It's been so fun being with her this week. I can honestly say that this week has been one of the happiest weeks of my life. Nothing special happened. I just hung out with my girlie all week. I am trying to savor every minute of my Livi time because I know summer will go by quickly.
Also, I've been keeping our house clean and cooking. It may seem silly to you, but these are great achievements for me!:) In the evenings I don't feel as tired and Jeremiah and I have been able to spend more time together. I'm finally getting back to my old self.
We sang a song by Chris Tomlin at church this morning and I almost started crying. This is one of my favorite songs. I know that the reason I'm feeling so content and happy is because of my relationship with God. So, I guess right now I'm just singing his praise. How many of you feel content with your life? If you don't, what can you do to achieve this goal? I know it's easy for me to say right now because I have the summer off. I understand that I probably won't always feel this way, but it is an AMAZING feeling right now!
"How Can I Keep From Singing"
There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling
How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing
I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give
I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne
